Away From Me Forever

Why do I force the graves to bury me faster?

Than I could pray they ever would? And even though

That cold air breathed its last breath away

From me tonight I still tried to feel where

The hurt could only grow into another rainbow

Loosing its favorite color

This disease called loneliness whispered louder

Than I ever anticipated it to; and even though I know

It was yesterday that I quit smiling at the Sun

Slow dancing its way into a slow death

That called itself “Polite”

I still heard singing Halos loosing their Faith

Just like me

And yet here I am with another shovel

In my hands digging my own grave just

To show this world that I was never good

Enough to let you pretend that I could

Breathe past the walls than one day ransomed

Another heart ache back to Heaven

The tourniquet felt so good tonight

As the blood dripped black from my eyes and I became

Just as meaningless to everyone else I knew who said that

“Tomorrow I would be ok” but even I saw

Past those lies that hurt so bad which I knew that

One day those crying eyes would

Close them off from the world forever

Shadows fell down like kryptonite

Getting lost behind a haze telling another star

Where to go; but as the day turned those grey

Clouds into a sleeping slumber I still tried to

Believe where dreams never come true for me

Past another blind light fading, fading, fading

Away from me forever